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Humiliation versus Humbling

Humiliation is not a choice. Humbling often is. 

The difference between these two became very clear to me this past Sunday. While running sound everything went wrong. Stuff broke. Things were not working. The sound mix was bad. And it was abundantly clear to several hundred people, including many leaders that I highly respect. Not my fault, but still I was the one at the sound board. 

That was the point of humiliation. (At which I did shed a few tears) Continue reading


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Happy Birthday IHOP!

I totally forgot to say!

Yesterday was IHOP’s 9 year anniversary. May 7th, 1999 we began prayer for 12 hours a day, then on Sept. 19th, 1999 we went 24-7. 

It was a good day. Nothing crazy happened in the prayer room, but we pressed in for healing again, we finished a 3 day fast, and it was encouraging to know that we have been doing this 9 years. 

August will be my personal 3 year anniversary of being at IHOP. It’s been a good journey. 🙂

(IHOP, a.k.a. The International House of Prayer of Kansas City)

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Well, hello to the 3 of you still reading this blog…

I took a loooong break from blogging. 🙂 This past month I have been doing a lot of transitioning (between teams) at IHOP and I have been trying to keep my classes at The Daniel Academy together. Planning lessons and grading papers tends to take the creative blogging out of me. ;-/ 

However, after 1 more week of classes and then 30 finals to grade the next week, I will be done! I am glad. It has been a long and hard year, as most people at TDA can testify to. Not without it’s rewards, that is certain. And I will be very sad to say goodbye to my students. This thing I can definitely say… mathematics aside… I definitely have two of the best classes of students at the school. I enjoy my students so much. 🙂 I am not sure how many, but I know that some students will be moving onto other schools or other cities next year. I am really going to miss them.

And, I will be teaching at The Daniel Academy next year! Two classes, hopefully Pre-Calculus and Algebra 2. But if there is not a high enough enrollment for Pre-Calc, then it will be Algebra 2 and Algebra 1. So, all you students out there… sign up for Pre-Calculus! It’s going to be a blast. 🙂 I am very excited about starting things fresh next year. I have a lot of ideas brewing in my mind, and I am looking forward to setting some standards from the beginning with the students. And having class 3 times a week will be wonderful. More time for creative stuff and discovery type of lessons. Good stuff. 

Well, I will leave other updates to future posts, but they include the addition of a very furry individual to my life! His name is Miles. More info to come later. 🙂


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A lesson well-learned

Phew! I learned a very important lesson today.

When fasting, do not try to be Superwoman. Leaving aside the reference to super-hero characters. (I actually was never much of a fan of superwoman, I preferred batman or dark-wing duck). However, I do seem to have this habit of trying to do things ‘all or nothing’. 

Like when I decided to become a runner (ha!), after the 2nd or 3rd day or not making it 3 miles, I gave up. I guess you could say that I want to put everything into life and sometimes practical stuff escapes me. Like, beginning that exercise routine with something small but every day. Now that has served me well. 

Back to today. I decided to be the marathon faster this GBF and just do water. Partly because of a situation with a loved one, where I have been crying out for breakthrough. Just picture me, running up that mountain… I am gonna make it… one more day. Unfortunately this morning I fell flat on my face. For you all out there, remember an essential fasting rule Stay Hydrated. A combination of de-hydration and that cup of coffee yesterday morning, woke me up an hour early, with warning signs pulpitating from my intestinal track. Its amazing how much you can throw up when in the last 20 hours you have only been drinking water, not to mention the last 6 hours you have been sleeping. 

Well, after an hour of misery, and another trip to the toilet, a friend rescued me with gatorade and saltines. My body is much happier and much more hydrated. Mmm mmm electrolytes. 🙂 And boy, was that a good lesson. It’s amazing the stuff you learn when you encounter pain. 😉 Ahh life. 


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He is the Potter

A few days ago I was reading a book by a well-known Christian lady. She is one of the ‘mothers’ of our faith, a woman who stood as strong for Christ 50 years ago as she is doing today. I was struck, in a very timely way, about a certain aspect of her faith.

In our churches today we hear a lot about Jesus as our personal  Lord and Savior, about the God who cares, about loving our neighbor and so on. But we (or at least I) have heard very little about Jesus our personal LORD  and Savior. I love the bridal paradigm, Jesus’ passionate love for the believer, and the father heart of God. But we simply cannot forget the areas of holiness, obedience and the fact that Jesus is our Lord. God is our master. We are no longer slaves to sin, but we are now slaves to righteousness. (Romans 6) God is the potter, and I am the clay.

 I have been struggling a lot over certain changes in my life-circumstances. I don’t like them. My job is shifting a little bit, and I liked things the way they were, not how they are becoming. In the last few weeks, my conversation with God has mostly been talking to him about my pain, about how frustrating the situation is and so on. In reading the above-mentioned book, I realized something. God has made the change, and I need to be reconciled to it. His purposes are fairly clear; it is stirring me up, forcing me to bring my mind, my will and my emotions into submission to God. It is a struggle that is teaching me to die to myself and live only to christ. A needed struggle. A necessary exercise of my faith.

John 15:2 Every branch that bears fruit He prunes that it may bear more fruit.

 This verse has been a description of my life the past few months…So many scriptures have come alive to me lately.  

My Brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. (James 1:2-3)

But indeed, O man, who are you to reply against God? Will the thing formed say to him who formed it, “Why have you made me like this?” (Romans 9:20)

I think we need to remember again that God is The Potter. He chooses our giftings, He chooses whom to anoint. (Yes, there is an aspect of investing and cultivating our talents, but He is the one who decides which and how many we are to have) It is our job to seek His will, and then bring our mind, will and emotions into submission to Him. Not an easy task by any means, but the task of Love. If we say that we love God with all our heart, mind, soul and strenth, then our actions should show that to be so.

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I find it somewhat disturbing that young girls are being pursued by the make-up and beauty industry at the age of 6 yrs old. This article sort of paints it as “isn’t it interesting that our culture is moving this way”. I don’t think so. In my opinion it’s more an indication of the troubling nature of the industrialization of human trafficking. I agree with Rosalind Wiseman that this is simply the ‘hyper-sexualization’ of young girls. Why is it all of a sudden cute to see a small girl decking herself out in make-up and other ‘body-enhancing’ clothing?

On a different note. I am pleased to see that Starbucks is working on ‘re-training’ its’ baristas. That has been needed for a while. Although, unlike a few coffee shops around here, Starbucks does not burn it’s coffee. Still, the coffee shop has begun to resemble more of a fast-food chain than a place to chat and drink espresso. Sort of losing the ‘cultured’ feel that other smaller coffee shops have. 

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It’s not rocket science.

I discovered something this week, that I want to share with you all. It may come as a surprise, but…I need sleep.

Now former roommates have noticed the above, and even teased me about it. I actually have faced a lot of ridicule over the years about my need for sleep. The fact is, if my body does not get 8hrs, it tends to just ‘turn off’ at the oddest places. Including: The sound board, driving (long story…), the prayer room, every class I have taken, the movie theater and so on.Let me tell you something straight. I am not being lazy, this dropping off to sleep surprises me as much as the next person.I have however, learned a few warning signs.

You know that feeling when you sit down, and boy does that feel good to rest for a moment. That is a blaring siren to me, that I had better stand up or pace or something, because the next moment the head will be nodding for all to see. Sometimes I get caught off guard. Suffice it to say that I need sleep. 

Well, so this blog is not supposed to be about my arcadian rhythms. Rather the laughable realization I had a few days ago. I was feeling extremely stressed. There was a list of stuff that I should have been doing, but I was too fried to even begin it. I was almost snapping at my students a couple times. So, I stopped and said ‘what’s my problem?’.Then I followed the advice of a leader of mine. He generally said that whenever he is feeling oppressed, depressed, that I am about to quit everything feeling… go home, eat something, and sleep. It was a revelation for me at the time. 🙂

So, again this past week, I followed that advice. I had lunch, and took a 90 minute nap. Let me tell you, I woke up so refreshed with a great attitude. I made it to the prayer room, fulfilled my sound duties for the night, and then that night I slept for 9 hrs. Boy in the last 48hrs my life has turned about, because I took that time to rest. You know life’s issues are in a much better perspective after a little nap. I highly recommend it. 🙂

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